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About zappedin2008

In 2008, at age 50, my life was turned upside down and inside out with diagnosis of Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of childhood trauma endured as a result of events/experiences with my Mother who was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia when I was age 2. I believe in the power of support and hope to connect with others to share experiences, ideas for recovery, etc. as we make this journey.

Daily Journal – As outspoken as I am why is it so hard to just say NO

3/12/2013 7:00 am Again, I haven’t journaled since Saturday morning but I’ve learned two valuable lessons.  First I’m realizing there is only a short window of time where I am able to capture what is going on with me otherwise … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – 3/9/13 My Healing Journey is like a Board Game

3/09/2013 9:00 a.m. My Healing Journey is like a Board Game – I’m now back at START after rolling the dice and being sent to the DARK DUNGEON for three days. I haven’t journaled since Tuesday morning but then I … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – There are no Coincidences, Everything Happens for a Reason

3/05/2013 4:18 am So MUCH INNER TURMOIL (interesting … just fyi I did manage to journal yesterday early before I had to leave to accompany my daughter to a support hearing in Delaware and it was titled “Dysfunction breeds Dysfunction”.  … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – Exhaustion and Lack of Sleep – From Dark to Darker

3/03/2013 8:46 Lack of Sleep & Exhaustion will Darken the Picture for even the healthy ones. Horrible night, went to bed at 10 pm exhausted and heavy with depression but didn’t sleep well at all which was somewhat surprising since … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – It’s been a very dark couple of days

3/02/2013 7:31 a.m. It has been a very dark couple of days … I did write something on Thursday. I’ve been in a dark empty place … horrible feeling and so alone. For me loneliness is about not feeling connected. … Continue reading

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Why I choose to heal my inner child and ego state therapy …

  I believe we all come into this world the same way … these miraculous little beings of pure goodness with our own id’s … people we were intended to be … but then for many something horrible happens and … Continue reading

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Daily Journal – Never Underestimate the Power of Faith

Daily Journal 5:45 am It’s morning, so depleted from reliving these events over and over again. At least last night as I watched myself in bed as young girl I am reminded of my faith as I watch myself prayer … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – Prayers for Tianna, Hoping for the Best, Preparing for the Worst

2/26/2013 6:15 a.m. My heart, body, mind, and soul are filled with my 4 yr old granddaughter this morning.  This morning I go with my daughter to take her to see the hematologist about her high blood platelet count.  I’ve … Continue reading

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Who am I? As I relate to “Emotional Neglect and Complex PTSD” by Pete Walker

My notes from reading the below article – Emotional Neglect and Complex PTSD by Pete Walker  emotionalNeglectComplexPTSD This article highlights the prodigious role that emotional neglect plays in childhood trauma, and how it alone can create Complex PTSD. Growing up … Continue reading

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My Daily Journal – Nobody knows me better than I do

2/24/2013 8:35 a.m. Well I’m up and moving.   I know I had at least 2 flashbacks but snapped out of it quickly so I don’t remember.  That doesn’t happen often.  Maybe it’s become I’m in a rage right now.  My … Continue reading

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